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ただいま.

2010-12-04T02:23:00.000+08:00

It's been a while now, since I returned from Australia. The only good thing I have to say about the experience over there was the weather and scenery. And like I said, another month has passed.

The pang of being in the service has long since worn off. Dealing with mundane tasks every week has become common again. Mundane people too. Not all of them are lousy though, as I found out. I quite like the company of a minority sometimes. Some of us are just so displaced in this godforsaken place. Yeah, I'm actually typing this in the place itself.

Just 12 more months now.

Maybe the lack of time and freedom is starting to get to me. Haven't felt happiness in a long time. Not a bit. Or maybe there's something missing inside me. A couple pieces of my puzzle. Hopefully, in due time, they'll be solved.

切ない.

いってくる。

2010-10-15T00:45:00.002+08:00

So, another month. Great. At least if I countdown with the number of paydays I have left, time might just go faster.

Shouldn't really be awake now, but I just feel like writing something, before I leave. Come to think of it, by the time I come back, I can write another one again.

I'm going off to Queensland, Australia tomorrow. Probably going to spend my birthday in the middle of some forest too. What a celebration.

I'll write more when I come back, I suppose.

進め、南へ！

两岸的心还能再相聚吗？

Just for laughs.

2010-09-05T22:36:00.002+08:00

Just got to share these videos. Hope it makes someone's day out there. =)

And, forgive me, but I'm an Ultraman geek. Haha.

そうか。それだけだったのか。考えすぎたか、俺は。

A gasp of fresh air.

2010-08-10T23:45:00.002+08:00

Time really do flies. As the last moments of ND hell dies into nothingness until hopefully forever, I'm already 8 months into the service.

My previous post was one month ago. Wow. Can't believe that.

Now, for some bit of hopefully uninterrupted hard-earned rest. Until... you know.

Looking forward to 夏祭り again this year. Hopefully I'll be able to attend. This uncertainty certainly makes me dislike the service more.

Peace and quiet. Why can't the whole world be like that? Because everyone is "unique". Some are less so.

きみ、大丈夫かな？せめて、もう一度会わせてよ。

And so it goes on...

2010-07-12T14:02:00.002+08:00

Benevolent Fund? Community Chest? How about my own stomach?

Not that I don't like to help people, I do love that, but I'm afraid that's not possible if at the expense of my own health.

Being more privileged doesn't mean that we "wear undies on the outside". I need sleep. I need food. I need time to do other things. I'm not asking for a lot, I'm asking for enough, thank you very much.

And to think that They believe in strong physical fitness. Muscles don't just grow from water and bread.

And to cough up 3 percent of our abysmal "pay" to help the needy?

These just add on to the pile of reasons why Japan seems to be a better living habitat for me.

変わらなくて、そのままで、続けて欲しい...

Worst years of my life.

2010-06-26T04:08:00.005+08:00

I know this is not the first long hiatus I have taken from blogging.
I was about to start greeting all my readers again, when I think: does it really pay off to be polite and nice to people all the time? And yet, when we don't, people appreciate us lesser. Why must there be people that we have to be careful of? Why am I doing these? Why is being like that in my nature? Why am I always at the losing end? Is it really a must to be intelligent, strong, fit, experienced and whatsoever to "survive"? Seems like people can find so many alternative ways to "survive". Why is there a need to, "survive"? Survival of the "fittest"? For what? When there's so much bad going on in the process.

Don't you feel tired of it sometimes, too? I do, now. But, changing to blend in with the dark crowd just isn't myself.

I guess I don't need to explain myself for taking such a long hiatus from blogging. Being in the service itself is pretty much self-explanatory, at least to those who understands and those who have served before. For those that can't understand why it is so hard to post a few blog posts every now and then, when the amount of free time you have every week amounts to only 2 days or less than 48 hours out of 7 days, I'm not even going to try explaining. Unless you think I have no life.

How is the service like, some people ask?

How nice would it be, to be slacking at home on a nice saturday afternoon, if only you know you have the whole week to do it.

How nice would it be, to be lying down on your back, facing the night sky, gazing at the stars, if only you're free to seek shelter when it suddenly downpours on your face.

How nice would it be, to be enjoying a mess-tin full of hot instant noodles on a cold evening, if only you're not in the middle of a forest.

How nice would it be, to go for a run under the morning sun, break out some sweat, if that's the only exercise you will do on the day.

How nice would it be, to look up and see a big stretch of blue sky, if only you're not wearing clothes that can still make you sweat even if it's 10 degrees.

Of course, these are just an understatement as to how it is like, but you can get the picture.

Well, 18 months to go.

まだ時々きみのことを思い出す。　多分、俺に優しいのはきみしかいなかったからな。　もう関係ないはずだけど、そんな優しさを絶対忘れない。　お幸せに。　多分、今の俺はだれもを待つべきじゃないな。　だれも現れないみたい。

10 weeks left.

2010-01-30T01:38:00.000+08:00

April the sixth. All I am thinking of every week. After which my hair can grow a little longer, and my tan lines will start fading.

Quite a unique experience to be able to lie on my back on my bed, blogging using my 2 weeks old iTouch. =) One important form of comfort in camp. Just too bad that my hard disk died on me one week after I bought it. My 30+gb song library. Poof. Not to mention everything else.

During a time of crisis like this, a spare laptop and an iTouch are enough to save oneself from detachment from the cyber world.

With an iTouch, now you can really multi-task beyond the realm of cyber space. (Tsk tsk)

I shall now let my wretched body and mind be at blissful ease before yet another week of physical and mental conditioning.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iTouch

Happy New Year!

2010-01-01T13:07:00.002+08:00

お正月明けましておめでとう。

Best wishes to everyone and have a memorable 2010.

What else could have been better than a 4km march that takes more than one hour around Marina with hundreds of thousands of people, just to watch some cool fireworks? Nothing, I guess.

Harder. Better. Faster. Stronger.

2009-12-24T13:47:00.002+08:00

Clean or layered with dust, the surface of my keyboard has never felt better, nor does a computer screen has been more unfamiliar to me. It feels good to be at home, to feel at ease all the time, to hear the voices of your love ones, to miss the people that you miss.

More hellish days to come ahead, but at least it'll make me a better man.

Merry Christmas everyone, enjoy the day. Cheers.

One last one.

2009-12-11T03:18:00.008+08:00

Before 2 years of living hell is bestowed graciously upon me by our dear government. Farewell, beloved chin-length sideburns, mouth-length fringe and my naturally soft and straight smooth hair. Farewell, often taken-for granted ridiculous sleeping patterns and the nice comfort of my bedroom. Farewell, my air-conditioner and the mostly bug-free air in my room. See you, my desktop computer and 9.2 surround speakers.

Hello, scalp. Hi, freaking hot sun shining on my hairless head. Nice to see you, forest and everything living in it. Hey, stench of sweat-drenched men. Hello, lack-of-freedom to do everything I once could.

Here goes nothing. Father Time, please make Christmas come faster.

她，就像随着天阴而消失的一道彩虹，
突然地离我而去...
看到她的色彩时，心情平静快乐,
仿佛周围的事物都化为无，眼里只有那七种颜色...
发现她消失了，才悟她不会永久在身边...
那时，才开始怀念她悬挂在天空的英姿，
还有望着她的那满足感...
才知道想要再看见她，
在什么时候还是个未知数...
只能在每一场雨后，望着天空，幻想她的踪影...

一周しかない。

2009-12-05T23:58:00.003+08:00

Just feel like sharing a beautiful song with you all - Memories, by Within Temptation.

Enjoy. =)

始终，遇见了她是我最大的福气...
虽然不会有什么完美结局，但却已经很开心...
那短短和她接触的日子让我学到了不少...
希望在未来的日子里，她会幸福快乐...

A long wait.

2009-11-30T17:57:00.002+08:00

It's one of those few times that I'm blogging before the sun sets. Do people really tend to think more when it's night and they can't sleep, or just because they're sober? How important does it make the thoughts be, if the person is pondering over them day and night, all the time?

I have been waiting all this while, and gradually, it's proving to have been for nothing.

Sometimes, I just feel it's so unfair.

On a side note, Happy belated birthday, Firefox! Thank you for making the internet experience better and more convenient for me.

她、让我很失望...
原本以为善良的她会不一样...
谁知、她却让我看到了她的缺点...
一点也不好受...
我已经让她看到我的全部...
可是对我而言、她却是个谜和未知数...
等了她这些时候、原来、只是痴痴的等待...

Does anyone use their heart to love anymore, still?

14 days.

2009-11-27T05:53:00.006+08:00

Is all I have left before enlistment.

Oh well, let's savor the time that I can sleep as and when I want while I still can.

Still to come, in my colorful next 2 weeks: Nothing but training and sleeping.

つまらねぇ！

Perhaps playing some computer games is not such a bad thing after all.

Video of the Day: Pan-kun makes udon

Pan-kun rocks! Those of you who need a maid to do the cooking should be ashamed of yourselves. So what if you can cook instant noodles, can you HAND MAKE noodles? Can you grow and harvest rice?(Search around, he did it too.)

怎么总觉得机会好像很渺茫...

还是是我想太多...

不好的结局也不在意...

只在意与你的开心...

你一直都在我脑海和心里...

时见若能倒流...

总是要更珍惜在你身边的每一分秒...

Fate?

2009-11-18T03:30:00.006+08:00

Hadn't been feeling restless at night for fourteen days straight. Well, maybe I had, but not to this extent tonight. I thought it's going to change, but apparently change needs time.

Had everything went smoothly, at this point of time I would be ten thousand feet high up in the air traveling through the night sky at four hundred kilometers per hour, gazing through a glass window to a vast space of darkness. My last chance of traveling abroad with this length of hair on my head in my lifetime, was gone up in smoke, just like that. I might not even have the chance to keep such length of hair in the next ten years of my future, unless I become a superstar soon, or I break my leg, or I become a non-resident of Singapore. That is part of being a healthy male in Singapore for you.

Most importantly, not much chance of enjoying natural air-conditioning and fresher air for the next two years. No snow. No autumn leaves. No nothing.

Just shades of green, yellow, brown, gray and some bit of blue and white when I look up.

Okay, I can and I will and I need to do this.

First, that. And then, heavy snow. Is this a sign, now?

Does one line on my palm really reflect how my life is going to be like? All of these are really too much of coincidences.

君にあいたいよ...

君の優しさも、純真も、

俺も、君のすべて好き...

怀念初次与你见面...

渴望和你再相逢...

Happy 21st.

2009-11-04T04:11:00.013+08:00

As of 30th October 2009, j y is officially 21 years old. No more sheepishly looking away trying to buy R21 movie tickets. And I most certainly can get into clubs with no trouble. And also, GST credits. =D

遂に、２１才になった！

Really enjoyed my celebrations with everyone. Now begins the next big chapter of my life.

Had an early celebration thanks to Xue Ling at the Singapore Flyer. Peaceful and calm night view of the Central Business District. Nice lights at night. Nothing much to see, though it was nice to be standing and leaning close to the glass, gazing over the place. Singapore's cluttered with concrete jungles everywhere. For reasons unknown, blogger doesn't accept the photos.

Next is the big day itself, a dinner at 佛有缘 with my family and DYBers. Thanks again, everyone! Hope you guys enjoyed the food!

And now, for the photos.

Everyone's eating their fill.

I'm busy eating while they're busy taking photos, haha.

I'm full.

Setting up the cake.

Pose.

Make a wish.

Blow candle.

Cut cake.

Getting my presents!

I ♥ 抹茶

In preparation for NS.

Group photo with DYBers.

Group photo with everyone.

KTV session at Cash Studio.

I ♥ Singing

Exhausting night, but I enjoyed it nonetheless. Thanks everyone.

A little tribute to Jasmine You.

2009-10-23T13:39:00.006+08:00

Forever a five piece music spectacle.

I'm 2 months late, but it's because I only discovered this sad news today.

Here's a little tribute to the bassist of one of my favorite visual bands, Versailles.

Rest in peace, Jasmine You, rocking the other world, August 9th, 2009.

I think he looks good, without the huge what-not on his hair.

And here's two of my favorite songs from them.

Sympathia-

Windress-

Goodbye, Jasmine.

In awe.

2009-10-23T08:57:00.002+08:00

I am still recovering from the awe I felt from watching Jdramas on my newly acquired full HD 21.5 inch wide LG Flatron. Doing everything feels new and beyond words!

Just some thoughts.

2009-10-19T04:21:00.011+08:00

Here I am, missing another night of sleep because of some (stupid?) random thoughts, though I really want to sleep. Been disappointed and tired of my life recently. Doing the same things again and again every week, it's already become a routine. Anybody got any ideas what to do at night in Singapore besides sleeping, clubbing, pubbing, KTVing, watching movies or eating? I'm so gonna make myself useful and break out of this cycle one day.

Tired about life, tired about love, especially. Can one still find true love and settle down happily in this so-modern world now? In Singapore? How many dead-ends does one need to reach before crossing the finishing line? It seems so difficult to me.

How do you define a good girl in Singapore? One that's filial, kind, caring, friendly, avoids night life, faithful?
How do you define a bad girl then? One that sleeps in the day and be active at night(outside of course), smokes, bed-hops, surrounds herself with guy friends, hangovers?
Is that what it really seems?

Which is bad, a kind crook or a corrupt cop? A faithful bar girl or a loose school teacher?

What is/are the purpose(s) of a single girl when she goes to a club?

Seriously, I was amazed at how a certain female school teacher can behave at a club when the sun is down.

How much is the population of Singapore? How many percent are young females?

I see so many different faces every time every week. Permutate that by the number of clubs and pubs in Singapore. How many percent does that take up the young females?

Is there no good or bad, just shades of gray?

How blind can love be?
I gotta share a first hand encounter told by one of my friends a long time ago. She had a friend, a girl, who was together with a boyfriend for around a year, and lives with him. One fateful day, while my friend was hanging over with them, the couple had an argument. Which worsen quickly and turned very bad indeed. I can't remember exactly what they argued over, but it was something very minor. You know what the guy did? He grabbed his girlfriend's head by the hair and knocked her against the wall. Several times. Her head was in pain and she fell over on the floor. And the action doesn't stop here. She was kicked, penalty-style, by the guy she lives with.
By this time, my friend of course, being a girl, was scared to death, but the absurdity doesn't end yet. The guy went tearing to the kitchen, shouting, and returned with a f**king knife. He shouted at my friend to get out of the house, and locked himself with his girlfriend in the room. Holding a knife.
Can you imagine the one person you love wielding a knife at you? Or grab your head to knock the wall? Or kick you while you are in pain, like a soccer ball? I can't.

I was told that was not the first time he used violence against her.

And you know what, I despise guys that put their hands on a girl. Let alone brandish a knife at her.
(Not unless she physically dominates you or injure you first, of course. Nobody's that stupid.)

Recently, I came across the facebook page of the said girl and you know what, they're still in the relationship. WHAT THE F IS THAT?

Now I can understand the need for a dating awareness week during valentine's. Although it probably wouldn't help the idiots.

A quote from syl.com(read the whole article here):
First of all make sure that there’s no love left neither from yours nor from his side. Do you want to start it all over again, try to fix or to avoid the mistakes? Do you think of him over and over again, remembering only the good moments? Probably you still cry about him, feel jealous to his new girlfriend, especially if they look such a nice couple. When you both meet you feel such a hysteric joyfulness which turns to be only frustration after you part. You keep telling everyone even your best friends that it’s over. Your are afraid to confess even to yourself that you are seeking for a way to get him back all the time. You aren’t yourself anymore, you’ve given up everything that’s been important and interesting to you before. Well this is the case when there can’t be any relationships with an ex although it may seem to be exactly what you want.

Well, again, probably there are still a handful that think towards the opposite direction. I most certainly don't think I need to think in their shoes. Nor care for them.

I don't think it'll ever change.

Just bidding my time.

(Are there no normal and good girls in Singapore? Or do I have to fly myself to Japan? Haha..)

Just for killing your boredom.

2009-10-17T21:41:00.004+08:00

Did some random surfing to kill my boredom(and curiosity), and look at what I've got.

Remembered that a friend once told me Megan Fox was born a man. Is she really?
I almost thought it's true in this post until I saw the next one, then I knew what the site was all about.

Which is here.

Want to know why people eat cows? Here.

This dog can become a pro X-games competitor one day.

The age of Star Wars is here!!

Some really good photo-shop skills.

A bird that is able to mimic a camera shutter sound perfectly.

Okay, this really educated me a lot about the stars. I just knew as far as Pluto in our solar system. Our sun is not that big, really. See here.

This was on my friend's facebook page, death of a man by electric shock. Viewer discretion advised.

How to put on visual-kei makeup, as demonstrated by Phantasmagoria member Kisaki, here.

Cute little girl does cute amateur magic!

I love Japanese pranks I.

I love Japanese pranks II.

That's all.

来るんだ。

2009-10-12T13:28:00.005+08:00

Recently addicted to Khalil Fong's red bean. Learning it now.

你会陪我看细水长流吗？

And also, this girl singing bizarre love triangle. (Although her pronunciation could be better.)

Things that I want to do:

Tidy and rid my room of dust and grime
Clean my computer's internal organs
Start learning new japanese stuff and properly archive my notes
Stop wasting time on playing games
Try to think of some way to celebrate for my 21st birthday

Anybody want to come if I book a chalet or something?

Another random video about a cute monkey waiter at a japanese restaurant.

そう思って嬉しい。　ずっと、あんたに会いたかったよ。
そして、来てくれてありがとう。

ほな～

Random Update.

2009-09-30T22:31:00.007+08:00

今晩は！　また日本語でブログする。　本当に日本語でやらなきゃから、わからなくてごめんな。　ハハ～。

今月の最後のポストだな。　早いね～。

来月のこの日、史上最壮大なことが起こる：　俺が二十一歳になる。　わくわくしてるなぁ～

じゃあ、最近の写真を発表する。

太陽くんの２１歳の誕生日＠好き屋　　左にはあいこちゃんだ。

星蘭祭＠早稲田渋谷シンガポール

ヨーヨを五つ取ったよ！

アンド、　俺の靴紐を結んでくれた女、超かわいい！！！

ハハ、　それじゃあ。

And now, maybe I teach some Japanese again:

Japanese Lesson 7
-------------------

Let's learn the days of the week, shall we?

Monday : ge.tsu.yo.u.bi
月曜日

Tuesday : ka.yo.u.bi
火曜日

Wednesday : su.i.yo.u.bi
水曜日

Thursday : mo.ku.yo.u.bi
木曜日

Friday : ki.n.yo.u.bi
金曜日

Saturday : do.yo.u.bi
土曜日

Sunday : ni.chi.yo.u.bi
日曜日

Animals.

2009-09-24T23:04:00.002+08:00

Was watching martial arts videos on youtube, and I don't know why, as I clicked on related videos the relevance became weirder and weirder, and I ended up with these rather intriguing videos.

Lots more to view if you click around.

じゃあなぁ～

Hooray.

2009-09-20T23:02:00.004+08:00

I finished poly, like finally. Although not officially, as I should have to wait for 6 months to get my certificate. Country, I'm trying to get my body ready for you now. (I have to, anyway.)

Incidentally, the person-in-some-way-responsible for my graduation delay happened to call me, in the middle of the night(what a sweet and polite little person) to yet ask me for another small favor that I was "not man enough" to oblige.

Firstly, I suppose cyber stalking must have been legalized recently without my knowing, as I certainly didn't hear of such news. Because there was no mention of it during the whole conversation(s) saying that I could be reported to the police for allegedly "traumatizing"(refer to previous post) the said person. I wonder how free our country's finest are to read through the whole thing, seriously. Let alone listen to a person who got hysterical because what was said in the past was posted here on my blog.

However, as the person has an extremely good sense of injustice, contradiction, unfairness and illogical reasoning, I don't see any point in arguing anymore.

I still act like a little girl, am unreasonable, unfaithful, think too much, forever correct, "我对你做了这么多，我看你也不是什么好东西了", a f**ker, contradict myself, hot-headed, vindicative, hot-tempered and only god remembers what else.

Finally, I find it quite hard to oblige because, I'm lazy too, actually. (And I don't know what I'm doing here, taking time to create a new post! Apparently, typing a lot of things is easier than deleting things.)

As usual, foes of mine, if any, are encouraged to post your displeasure towards me on the tag board. However, please read through all the relevant content carefully first.

On a different note, I went to Waseda Shibuya High School today for the 19th annual Sei-Ran-Sai! (Good thing I didn't see any person not worth seeing.)
The graduating classes are getting more and more interesting with their projects and presentation(though some acting are kind of lame), and the bread is so nice! A pity there's a lot of things I can't eat. And, 2 straight years that I missed the tea ceremony.
Just waiting for photos from jiayi so I can maybe post the photos here.

Another funny Japanese video link from my friend's facebook, teaching you how to save time in the morning if you're running late. Enjoy.

それじゃあ.

Relationship Problems: A Case Study

2009-09-16T02:18:00.007+08:00

Well, have been rather unoccupied lately this week, especially in the middle of nights. (Still can't sleep early.) Hence this post.

Anyway some randoms first before I forget, I actually helped my MUM to set up her first ever set of PC today. Sadly, the monitor wasn't working though (because it's a "gift" from my third aunt, an old 15 inch CRT monitor that she herself has no use for). So my mum maybe getting a new flat screen instead, and, I don't know whether she'll do it or not, but she said she may get the new screen for me, and then use my current one for herself instead. If it's larger than 19' then I'll be so happy.

Okay, this WILL get very long, may well be my longest post yet, I don't know.

I was so bored tonight, I went to read my past chat logs with people on MSN, and just as I was reading a long one from a certain person that is part of my past, I received a call from my dear old buddy, Aaron. Same old problem: relationship. And it's involving a third party as well. Pretty much the same thing I experienced 2 years ago? (Yes, it's this fast.) A bit nostalgic for me while comforting him. Same old case of old-problems-not-solved-and-new-ones-are-added-to-the-pile thing. The girl still has not resolved differences/love with her ex-boyfriend yet, and has now comfortably settled herself in yet another "secure zone". How modern to have two loves at once.

I will now show a case study of this kind of a problem. The timeline is about 1 to 2 weeks after problems started arising. (Best time to nip the problem in the bud, which I didn't know then, but I think I can now.) Couldn't help laughing to myself while reading all these. I think I've got to thank her for maturing me and helping me gain experience. One good friend of mine is right: "If the person is so lame, and you argue with him/her, you're even lamer."

A Case Study

Session Start: Tuesday, August 14, 2007

j y. (zetton88@hotmail.com)
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(10:52 AM) j y.:	what do you want to talk about..?
(10:53 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	why nv reply my sms..?
(10:53 AM) j y.:	i'm coming online to ask u what u want to talk about..
(10:54 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	why have u become like dis..
(10:54 AM) j y.:	become like what..?
(10:55 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	sounds like u`re talking to ur enemy..
(10:55 AM) j y.:	i dont see u as my enemy..
(10:55 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	den why are u talking like one nw..
(10:56 AM) j y.:	if u dont wanna come, then dont force urself mah.. it's okay de..
(10:57 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	so u dun want me to come?
(10:57 AM) j y.:	i want u to come, but do you want to come?
(10:58 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i anything.. but the way you talk really is different..
(10:58 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	since ytd..
(11:00 AM) j y.:	i want u to come.. then u say anything.. if u are just entertaining me.. then dont force ur self mah.. i dont like to force ppl also.. if u have other more important matters than me then go ahead bah..
(11:03 AM)	j y. has changed his/her status to Idle
(11:03 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i`m not entertaining you.. if i eva give you an impression i`m entertaining you.. i can tell u i`m not.. i`m really very upset dats what u think.. and i dun get it.. why u can chat wif ur buddy for the entire night.. but the latest we can chat is only till 2 plus going to 3.. and i dunnoe why you can ton outside when u supposed to meer.. me today..
(11:04 AM)	j y. has changed his/her status to Online
(11:05 AM) j y.:	i already told you.. u and i can be able to chat every night.. u think him and i can do the same..? we dont get the chance to do this often so i dont want to miss the chance..
(11:06 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i understand totally..
(11:06 AM) j y.:	what u mean?
(11:07 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i understand what you`re trying to say..
(11:08 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	and u did not reply my sms yesterday.. or sms me that you`re going to be home late.. and i`m here like a fren of a dumberer ing for you to go online..
(11:08 AM)	j y. has changed his/her status to Idle
(11:09 AM)	j y. has changed his/her status to Online
(11:09 AM) j y.:	u mean ur msg saying "It's okay.." ?
(11:09 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	ya
(11:10 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	weneva i know u`ll be ing for me to online.. i would tell u roughly wat time i`ll reach home.. if i gonna reach home late.. i`ll ask u not to ..
(11:12 AM) j y.:	what do you expect me to reply to that msg..?
(11:12 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i know the ton thing was last minute tingy.. but before the ton tingy.. do i come across in your mind..? dat u should at least tell me u are still outside and u do not know how late u gonna be home..?
(11:13 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	any reply.. to at least how dat u saw my sms.. i was like keep restarting my phone.. i thought my phone was spoilt..
(11:13 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	weneva i know u`ll be ing for me to online.. i would tell u roughly wat time i`ll reach home.. if i gonna reach home late.. i`ll ask u not to .. i know the ton thing was last minute tingy.. but before the ton tingy.. do i come across in your mind..? dat u should at least tell me u are still outside and u do not know how late u gonna be home..?
(11:15 AM) j y.:	i told you i was about to tell already when u sms me that time.. when have u ever not crossed my mind.. did u think that?
(11:16 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	it was already 12 plus.. and dats the time u gonna tell me..? before u confirm the ton tingy.. u should have give me a sms dat u`re still outside.. not after u decided the ton tingy.. dat u decided to sms me..
(11:21 AM) j y.:	u mean i should be reporting to u my wherabouts even after u decided to breakup with me? but u dont even seem to care about me already.. when u say u want to breakup with me.. u really treated me just like ur normal fren.. didnt even reply alot of my smses.. ur replies were not even enthusiastic.. u did things first before telling me.. so i cant do anything about it.. now u are saying that wheras u dont have to give all ur feelings to me, i must give all mine to u?
(11:23 AM)	j y. has changed his/her status to Idle
(11:23 AM)	j y. has changed his/her status to Online
(11:24 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	dats not what i mean at all.. u should noe we always chatted at night.. and i was ing for you in skype when i was feeling super tired.. u dun have to tell u where u are and where u`ll be going.. but at least.. spare a thought for me.. tell me you`re still outside and may stay out late.. so dat at least i can go and have a rest first or something.. it`s not bout reporting me the wherabouts.. Jy.. it`s bout responsibility..
(11:25 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	u dun have to direct all ur feelings to me.. and these few days.. u did not sms me much.. and i did reply your smses.. perhaps for some i overlook it.. but ur smses are very few..
(11:26 AM) j y.:	but that's not you at all... that's not what u have been showing me this past week..
(11:26 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	den what have i been showing you the past week..?
(11:27 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i`m talking bout u not telling me u`re goin` to stay out late when u noe i`m ing here.. or mayb i`ve nv cross ur mind..
(11:27 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	so u jolly well hack care..
(11:28 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	boy.. u`re making me so super upset..
(11:29 AM) j y.:	that is the thing.. u didnt once overlook my smses when u were with me.. u were always so enthusiastic to reply me.. always very fast.. even when u are at work.. after he came back.. you are focusing more on him.. i dont matter to you anymore.. u are just entertaining me..
(11:31 AM) j y.:	this past week.. u didnt even tell me urself what time will u be back home to chat with me.. i had to ask u myself.. if i didnt ask u.. i wouldnt even know how many times u are going out with him.. u dont really care about me anymore..
(11:33 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	what u mean by how many times i`m going out with him..? we were chatting using sms.. and i did tell u wat time i`ll be back home.. and ask u to for me..
(11:33 AM) j y.:	u also even made the effort to tell me that i forgot to reply u.. but u dont even do that anymore...
(11:34 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i`m not entertaining you at all.. and i nv like what u say: dun care bout you.. i care for you alot.. jus dat i have many things in my mind.. and i tend to stray off and overlook many things.. not only ur smses.. i did not reply every1`s smses sometimes including him..
(11:38 AM) j y.:	if u care about my feelings.. u would also have tried ur best to meet up more often with when u have the time.. but it's always given to him.. u can consider or just to entertain him or whatever to go out with him for 3 consecutive days... wheras u cannot bring urself to try to meet me for two days.. and u have been seeing him like 2 years plus.. u only see me how long... u really cannot overcome the distance barrier?
(11:40 AM) j y.:	u said he made u sian.. yet u can be prepared to meet him more than u meet me.. what is it u are telling me..? i'm worse than him?
(11:42 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	u`re not worst den him.. u`re definitely better den him.. and i dun mind the distance barrier at all.. i met him.. cos he wanna clarify tings.. i can meet you.. i definitely can meet you.. but i`m afraid the more i meet you.. the more i`ll hurt you..
(11:42 AM)	j y. has changed his/her status to Idle
(11:42 AM)	j y. has changed his/her status to Online
(11:42 AM) j y.:	haha.. havent u already hurt me enough? what can be worse than that?
(11:43 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	so u saying i`m hurting you all along since day 1..
(11:43 AM) j y.:	u have been hurting me since the day he came back
(11:43 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	and u think u`re the only one receiving the pain.. and i`m not..? u think u alone in dis.. did u even tell me..
(11:44 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	u didn`t even tell me ure feeling hurt.. why ain`t u sharing me wat u feel..
(11:47 AM) j y.:	how to share with u when u seemingly dont even bother.. after that phone call u gave me on that friday telling me... u cared less for me.. u told me u chose me on that friday.. but what happened in the end? he's so manipulative that he can even change ur decision.. i dont know what would have happened if he chose to come back after we are together for two years.. if u are so easily swayed.. how can u still bring urself to be with me?
(11:48 AM) j y.:	i really cant take it that such a person can actually turn our relationship like this..
(11:50 AM)	j y. has changed his/her status to Idle
(11:51 AM)	j y. has changed his/her status to Online
(11:51 AM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	can u stop saying i dun bother u.. i really cared for you alot.. i really do.. he brings me lots of my past memories.. both sad and happy ones.. if we were together for 2 years.. i`ll nv choose him.. i`m not easily swayed.. it`s jus dat there`s so many things going on in my mind.. dat i`m totally confused..
(11:57 AM) j y.:	if you really loved me.. how can u still bring urself to do these..? u said u are so happy with me.. i'm not really sure of that at all.. if u are so happy with me.. how can u still be prepared to drop back into that hole again.. perhaps he can bring you more hapiness... maybe u can turn a blind eye to all that he had done to you.. but not all ppl can do that.. if u are even considering to give such a person a second chance.. it only shows that u love him more than u do me.. and we should not continue anymore.. despite all the promises u made me when we were together..
(11:58 AM) j y.:	what is just so tempting about him that u even want to go back..? i'm so hurt that i cant even bring u around from him..
(12:02 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i`m really very happy when i`m with you.. i can forget all my worries and all my sadness.. last sunday.. he called and scolded me till very hard.. i totally break down.. but after i called and chat with you.. i feel so much better.. i`m not giving him a second chance.. but i really need time to forget him.. yes.. indeed u done more evil tings den good tings.. but afterall is a long r/s..
(12:02 PM)	j y. has changed his/her status to Idle
(12:02 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	he`s not doing anything dat is tempting..
(12:02 PM)	j y. has changed his/her status to Online
(12:03 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i mean he not you..
(12:03 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i`m really very happy when i`m with you.. i can forget all my worries and all my sadness.. last sunday.. he called and scolded me till very hard.. i totally break down.. but after i called and chat with you.. i feel so much better.. i`m not giving him a second chance.. but i really need time to forget him.. yes.. indeed he done more evil tings den good tings.. but afterall is a long r/s..
(12:06 PM) j y.:	after u said u are so happy with me for just two weeks... then he came back to want u back.. and just on the term that it's a long relationship.. u can be prepared to abandon this happier relationship.. to go back to that hole again.. knowing precisely what kind of a person he is.. after what he still continue doing when u decided to break with me just to rethink it over.. he doesnt even cherish the chances that u are giving him.. u asked me for time to forget him.. is that what u are really doing..?
(12:07 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i really dun want you out of my life.. i cant imagine.. without ur presence.. hw dull my everyday will be.. i`m really sorry if i given u an impression den i dun bother bout u.. but in my heart i nv wanted to dis.. and please trust me i`m not here to hurt you..
(12:07 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i break with you cos.. during the whole ting.. i`m scared i may hurt u a whole lot..
(12:08 PM) j y.:	or are u just tesing out waters.. u said he suddenly came back to plea with you.. u dont know whether he truly loved u or he just play with you.. so u asked me for time to rethink... what is there to rethink actually? u mean to say that while u are with me u dont really feel secure..? anytime an ex come back to find you.. u know u have a second choice already.. u can be prepared to break with me to rethink again?
(12:09 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	if dats what u think.. u can go on ahead.. so dats what u truly think..
(12:10 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	u`re not thinking in my shoes at all.
(12:12 PM) j y.:	i'm not only giving u time... i'm also giving him my precious time.. i dont want him to use my time.. u want time from me to test whether he truly loves u.. if he does.. u can happily go back to him.. if he play with u.. u can come back to me... i want to try thinking in ur shoes.. i have tried already.. i really dont see the big problem.. but u are really telling me that all that we have done together cant even be compared to this person coming back..
(12:15 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i`m not testing whether he truly loves me or not.. cos as time passes.. ppl changes.. i`m not playing with u at all.. so i choose to remain frens with you.. to give u a chance to look out for other girls as well.. all we have done together are really good memories i truly treasured..
(12:15 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	u dont see the big problem i`m facing nw..? den why not i tell u nw..
(12:16 PM) j y.:	u really break my heart.. how can u push me to other girls when i say i love you.. u really want to tell me u are using time to forget him? how can u forget hhim when u are meeting him more than me?
(12:17 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	den u dun think u`re breaking my heart when u say i`m testing waters..
(12:18 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i`m not meeting him more.. and each time we meet.. we are on the same line, same page..
(12:19 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i was happily with you.. enjoying every moments with you.. finally i can get be a happy girl.. suddenly he came into my life.. pushing all those memories back to the same place one by one.. i already in love with you.. and he`s making me so confused..
(12:21 PM) j y.:	what is the use of breaking with me when u say u want to forget him.. u mean u break with me so it's easier to forget him? that is not what u say at all... u are not really trying to forget him.. u are just giving urself 2 choices to make.. if u want to forget him.. why break with me? i'm so willing to give u my first relationship.. u have to treat it like this..
(12:22 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i break with you was the earlier part..
(12:22 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	at that point of time.. i nv tell u `im forgeting him.. but trying to sort out my thoughts..
(12:24 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i`m sorry i given u a bad experience..
(12:24 PM) j y.:	if u cant make a decision.. why not i help u make.. since it's torturing u so much.. if u want to go back to him u can go ahead.. forget me...
(12:25 PM) j y.:	u hurt me really through and through.. my heart is bleeding so profusely.. i can just die..
(12:28 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	so nw u`re pushing me away.. i`m really didn`t mean for all these to happen.. cant we jus remain like dis..
(12:29 PM)	j y. has changed his/her status to Idle
(12:29 PM)	j y. has changed his/her status to Online
(12:33 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	can we talk on skype..
(12:33 PM) j y.:	when it first started.. why didnt u tell me u just broke with him just 2 mths? how can u be prepared to go into a new relationship so fast? after three weeks.. after u made me love u so much... u come and tell me u have actually patched back with him for a week.. u are not even giving me a choice or anything.. i cant even do anything to help myself.. u waited until the thing has happened then u tell me.. how do you want me to forgive u for that? how do u think i can still feel secure around u..
(12:33 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	pleasr..
(12:34 PM) j y.:	i dont have energy to speak..
(12:34 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	u tell me u can still be with me. so all along u are lying to me..?
(12:36 PM) j y.:	of course if u love me.. i still want to be with u.. but u dont really love me at all.. u love him more.. if not why are u so affected by him..
(12:36 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i can choose not tell u i patch back with him for a week.. i regret telling u so nw.. my frens are right.. i`m stupid to be truthful..
(12:38 PM) j y.:	that is just so selfish.. u mean u can bear to hide from me forever? u can let him know but not me? he only patched with u for a week.. he can already access ur phone msgs.. i dont think i can be given the privileage
(12:38 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	u`re contradicting urself.. u said "how do you want me to forgive u for that? how do u think i can still feel secure around u.." and nw u say a different ting: of course if u love me.. i still want to be with u..
(12:39 PM)	j y. has changed his/her status to Away
(12:39 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	he access it himself without telling me.. i dun wanna hide from you.. dats why i tell u.. but after i tell u.. what u give me..?
(12:42 PM) j y.:	what u expect me to give u? "oh thanks for telling me.. i'm so glad u told me that this past week.. while u were my girlfriend.. u were also his girlfriend.. i'm so happy haha i should give u a present.."
(12:42 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i didn`t mean dat way.. it`s not funny..
(12:43 PM) j y.:	u betrayed my trust for u.. what u still expect me to give you? u want to seek for my forgiveness it's not this way.. if u want to seek at all..
(12:43 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	"u come and tell me u have actually patched back with him for a week.. u are not even giving me a choice or anything.. i cant even do anything to help myself.. u ed until the thing has happened then u tell me.. how do you want me to forgive u for that? how do u think i can still feel secure around u..
(12:44 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i thought by telling u the truth.. i can at least give u an impression dat i will share wif u anything.. and hope u can still continue to trust me.. but sumhw.. it seems worst..
(12:44 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	after i told u the truth..
(12:47 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i noe everything dat happens is all fault.. any parties who get hurt is also my fault.. i`m the protagonist of everything.. i`m the villian..
(12:48 PM) j y.:	i really want to continue to trust u.. but what have u been showing me this past week? u can still continue go out with him so many times.. u have ur own troubles u also dont want to tell me..
(12:48 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	cos i dun want you to sad with me.. cos i only want you to be happy.. dun u understand a single bit at all.. ??????
(12:48 PM) j y.:	i care for u so much.. yet u are trying to distance urself from me...
(12:49 PM) j y.:	until now u still dont understand what i said to u??? i'm only happy when i'm with you..
(12:50 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i understand.. but if swallowing all the problems myself can prevent you.. to be sad with me.. i will do it..
(12:50 PM) j y.:	that is not the way at all..
(12:50 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	and i`m really sorry i make u fele so hurt..
(12:50 PM) j y.:	if it's any matter.. maybe u can still do it.. but it involves a third person now...
(12:51 PM) j y.:	how can u still bear to make me feel so helpless and frightened?
(12:51 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	why am i making u feeling helpless and firghtened..?
(12:53 PM) j y.:	u have any problems.. u tried to solve by urself.. u wait until it happened then u inform me only.. dont u think that i want to help u solve it as well? but u dont even want to tell me.. u make me so afraid that i may lose u to him any second..
(12:55 PM) j y.:	i really love u very much.. but all u're doing now is making me so heartbroken..
(12:56 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	the problem rises cos of me.. dats the reason why i want to solve it by myself.. and i regret continueing to listen all his stunts which makes me so confused.. i have so many regrets now dat i`m more afraid den you do.. more hurt den you do.. my aim is not to hurt any1.. but sumhw it jus hurts you even more..
(12:58 PM) j y.:	when there are three persons involved.. there has to be one that is hurt.. and u have made me that one.. how can u expect not to hurt anyone in a three way relationship..? what.. him and me share u?
(12:58 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i didn`t mean dat way..
(12:59 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i have hurt both of you..
(12:59 PM) j y.:	please.. he is just not so worth it..
(1:00 PM) j y.:	i dont even think he can feel the pain i do..
(1:01 PM) j y.:	i thought that since this is not ur first relationship... u would have seen through this kind of people... but apparently.. i'm actually comparable with him.. that's a big insult to me...
(1:03 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	he`s the first guy who hit me.. who toy with my feelings.. who two time me for so long and i still dunnoe.. he`s the first guy who hurt me this deep when i already think that he`s the one for me despite whatever he done to me.. i nv compare you with him in regards with character.. i want to make sure the one i choose is the one i truly truly love..
(1:04 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	even though dis is not my first one.. but i nv been in dis kinda situation before.. i nv get hurt so much like dis before..
(1:05 PM) j y.:	but seemingly u still can for once gave a thought about going back to him.. so u are saying that u can actually dont mind suffering with him the rest of ur life.. than to be together with me and be happier...
(1:07 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i dun mind the sufferings with him last time.. but right now.. i jus want to be happy..
(1:11 PM) j y.:	i dont even know why since he gave u so much pain.. u still can mix around with him now... after he went off with another girl he barely know.. he nearly made a 15 year old pregnant... he broke up with another girl already.. then he come and cry.. and u can forget everything... as long as he can give u happiness now.. in the future.. who knows what he can do again.. even after he made u break with me.. and u gave a thought about going back to him.. he still can continue hurting u.. and u are still so confused.. i bet he must be feeling very triumphant now...
(1:13 PM) j y.:	u say right now u want to be happy.. so u werent happy with me.. he can give u more happiness.. that's why u want break with me.. so u can be happy..
(1:13 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	dats not what i mean..
(1:14 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	he can nv give me a full day happiness..
(1:17 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	whenever i want to have sum1 to fetch me home.. he would appear infront of me.. whenever we`re out.. he lead me the way.. whenever we`re crossing the road.. he take me across..
(1:18 PM) j y.:	but i can never be able to be there with you all the time u need me.. that's the difference between me and him isnt it? distance.. time..
(1:19 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	distance is not the problem.. but the time..
(1:22 PM) j y.:	i understand already.. u are happier with him.. no matter how much pain it costs.. as long as there is someone physically around u.. u feel better.. i live very far from u.. i can never be able to give u that.. no matter how happy u are with me... as long as i cant be there when u need me.. it poses a big problem.. i see it already.. u are happier with him.. no matter what he did to u in the past, are doing to u now, and can do to u in the future..
(1:23 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	he`s physically with me.. but i dun feel happy with him.. things are never the same like the past anymore..
(1:23 PM) j y.:	just forsake me can.. go and be with him.. if he's better for u..
(1:23 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	the more i`m with him.. the more presurrized i feel..
(1:24 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	wat u mean by forsake you..? forget bout u totally.. erase u.. and nv contact with u again..? i cant do it..
(1:24 PM) j y.:	u have already taken the first step.. it's not so hard to continue..
(1:25 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	no.. if u want me to put u out of my life.. i rather go die nw..
(1:25 PM) j y.:	then be with me
(1:26 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	but i need time to forget bout him.. i need you to trust me again.. i need you to feel secure again..
(1:26 PM) j y.:	u are not giving me any..
(1:28 PM) j y.:	if i'm with u.. of course i can help u to forget him.. but i dont know if u really want to forget him or not.. that's why u choose to breakup with me and to hang out with him.. the more u are distancing urself from me.. the more u are hurting me.. the more i'm not feeling secure.. i feel that i can lose u anytime do u understand???
(1:29 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	cant we remain frens for the time being..
(1:30 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i did nt hang out with him.. is either he come find me.. or his frens invite me..
(1:31 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	and i`m not distancing myself from you.. i dunnoe why are u thinking dat way..
(1:31 PM) j y.:	u have the right to reject him.. u are not his slave.. u have to rights to dont care about him.. u say u want to forget him.. but i think u havent taken the first step yet..
(1:32 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i have taken my first step not to contact him.. if agreeing to meet him makes his day better.. i will meet him.. i really need time..
(1:33 PM) j y.:	haha..
(1:33 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	if moving on makes u feel better.. i should move on.. *U
(1:34 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	seriously.. i dun find anything funny here.. pls be serious..
(1:36 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	cant we be frens nw?
(1:37 PM) j y.:	u want to forget about him.. but u think that since u compromise with him can make him feel better.. u will go ahead to go out with him.. why are u even caring about his feelings now? u mean to say that for the next two years.. if he continue to come and find u.. to make his life better.. u will compromise.. he say he see u with me he very heart pain... u also will compromise.. he ask u to be his girlfriend again.. i think u also will compromise..
(1:37 PM) j y.:	yet whatever i say to ask u to be with me.. it's just so hard for u to compromise..
(1:38 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	for dat gf tingy.. i wont compromise..
(1:39 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i dun promise u dis and dat.. den lata on i break it.. i want to be double sure all the promises i make i can fulfill.. *ni dun want..
(1:39 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	*i dun want
(1:39 PM) j y.:	u have already broken ur promise.. u have already made a promise u cannot keep..
(1:39 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	dats why i dun wanna carry on my mistake further..
(1:40 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	and i`ll nv drag for 2 years.. he give me 3 mths..
(1:44 PM) j y.:	and now then u tell me.. this whole thing is like just about u two.. i'm the third party.. everything u two discussed already.. then tell me.. i cant do anything.. i want or dont want is up to myself.. he actually gave u a time limit... what does he mean by that..? he mean this 3 mths can determine u truly love who more? so what after 3 mths u decided he's not for u..? then he can let u go and start finding other girls already? i have never for once thought of giving u a deadline..
(1:45 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	during these 3 mths.. he also will go search for other girls..
(1:45 PM) j y.:	i thought u truly love me.. but actually u dont..
(1:45 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i truly love you..
(1:46 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	but i do not know who i love most..
(1:47 PM) j y.:	but apparently u also love him alot.. i cannot bear to share the same heart with someone like him.. it's an insult..
(1:48 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i dunnoe..
(1:49 PM) j y.:	u have three choices.. either be with me.. be with him.. or dont want us both and find someone better than us.. whatever u choose i give u my blessings k..
(1:49 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	yes yes.. being with me is an insult.. cos i`m a slut, bitch and a complete asshole..
(1:50 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	so i should distance siti as well.. cos being with me is a BIG INSULT..
(1:53 PM) j y.:	u have thoroughly broken my heart.. and now u want throw tantrum for? u expect me to say that it's my fault now? that "oh sorry.. i should keep quiet and share the same heart with a heartless bastard like him" "i'm so sorry i should have kept quiet. it's all my fault.."
(1:54 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i throw tantrum..?
(1:55 PM) j y.:	whatever i say.. u love to twist it the other way round.. i say sharing the same heart with him is an insult.. u say being with u is an insult.. how similar they sound..
(1:55 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	the heart is mine..
(1:56 PM) j y.:	i just dont want to be sharing you with him okay
(1:56 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i dun want also..
(1:59 PM) j y.:	u know what u want.. but are u doing it out? are u taking action? the more u drag this on the more it will hurt the three of us.. if he can be hurt.. i dont want to put pressure on u.. but u have made urself the prime factor for this problem.. only u can solve it now..
(2:03 PM) j y.:	u dont want to tell me anything.. then u wait until ur three months is up.. or however long u two want to drag it... when u have been with him for enough time to know that u truly love him and dont mind getting hurt as long as he can be there with you... then u come and tell me bah..
(2:03 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	how to make myself not the prime factor..
(2:03 PM) j y.:	it's already fixed.. u are in the center now.. nothing can change it..
(2:04 PM) j y.:	u chose to be in the center.. by the way.. he doesnt have to be here at all..
(2:05 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i chose..? haha..
(2:07 PM) j y.:	u were already with me.. that is already a choice.. but now he come back.. cry.. then u have chosen to be caught between the two of us... that is a choice u made.. nobody forced u..
(2:08 PM) j y.:	u dont have to listen to his stunts.. but u thought that they were worth hearing..
(2:08 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	he`s at my house downstairs..
(2:08 PM) j y.:	great.. he can help u..
(2:09 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	as in last time..
(2:09 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	so i`ve no choice but to listen..
(2:10 PM) j y.:	why didnt u test him there and then? if he can cry downstairs and wait whole night for you.. why not be with him?
(2:11 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	so after so long.. ur decision is to forget bout me totally.. and push me to him..
(2:12 PM) j y.:	i cannot feel ur love for me..
(2:13 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	cos all u thinking nw is my ex can manipulate me..
(2:13 PM) j y.:	isnt that the case?
(2:13 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	no..
(2:14 PM) j y.:	u can even bring urself to delete our only photo together.. just because he flapped his mouth.. before u even say u want to break with me.. that is totally a slap in the face for me..
(2:15 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	flapped his mouth..?
(2:16 PM) j y.:	just because he opened his mouth and begged u to delete.. u delete.. u want to forget him.. but u didnt even delete his friendster comment for u..
(2:17 PM) j y.:	and that's when we were together. mind you.
(2:17 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i`m sorry..
(2:18 PM) j y.:	ur actions really slapped me in the face
(2:18 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	u can me.. i mean literally..
(2:18 PM) j y.:	i dont see the point in violence
(2:19 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i owe u alot..
(2:19 PM) j y.:	ur actions and words hurt more than ur real slap
(2:19 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i nv u..
(2:20 PM) j y.:	u dont owe me anything.. if u want to be be with him.. then be with him.. just return my heart to me in one piece..
(2:22 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i dunnoe i want to be with him or not.. but i`ve already return ur heart in one piece..
(2:22 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	and i owe u alot..
(2:24 PM) j y.:	if ur happy moments with him weigh the same as what he did to u... then u should go with him.. he can bring u comfort and joy i cant..
(2:25 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	u can as well.. but i hurt u so much.. i dunnoe hw to make it up to you..
(2:26 PM) j y.:	i cannot.. that is precisely the reason why u even think about choosing him.. because he may be a better choice..
(2:28 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	u`re a nice guy.. and u really treat me wholeheartedly.. this is the ting he can nv do.. but i dun mean to hurt u this way.. but i`m pitchforked into a predicament which i cannot get out..
(2:29 PM) j y.:	u cannot think of staying like this forever.. only u can help urself.. it's the choices u make..
(2:30 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i`ll make my choices..
(2:31 PM) j y.:	however nice i am to you.. i guess it is still not enough to keep you from straying.. maybe i'm the one pulling u down..
(2:32 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	u`re not pulling me down.. but if u want to move on.. u i`m not what u say i`m selfish.. asking you to for me..
(2:32 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	and i nv stray.. it`s the things kept coming dwn on me..
(2:33 PM) j y.:	the thing is i shouldnt even be moving on do you understand?????????? i already have you.. why should i move on? i love you.. but that is not enough to block out his stunts.. he can actually take over my place in ur heart..
(2:35 PM) j y.:	u are not strong at all.. u should have come to me earlier when he came to see u.. but u didnt.. we should have solved this together.. but u didnt want... i dont know what u see me as..
(2:35 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	what makes you think he take over ur place in my heart?
(2:36 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i dun wanna trouble u.. dats why i nv come to u..
(2:38 PM) j y.:	and do you think i would have appreciated if u come to me for help.. or i would appreaciate it more that "oh thanks.. ur problem u solve urself.. thanks for trying to solve urself.. so that i dont have to do anything and wait.." i was ur bf.. for god's sake.. what is the point of not coming to me for help?
(2:43 PM) j y.:	fine.. dont talk.. wait until when u think i'm important then come and talk k..
(2:43 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	at that point in time.. i dun see any way u can help me.. cos it`s my past problem.. so i think i should solve it myself..
(2:43 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	if i tell u that he`s coming back to me.. how can u help..?
(2:43 PM) j y.:	u think i will let him take u away from me that easily?
(2:44 PM) j y.:	ur heart has already swayed towards him at that point of time.. u can even agree to patch with him..
(2:45 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	it`s at a heat a moment
(2:45 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	*of a
(2:45 PM) j y.:	because our love is not strong.. that's why..
(2:47 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	lets say u also have a ex who u be with quite long.. and suddenly she come back pleading you and crying for u to return to her.. but at that point of time.. u were with me.. how would u settle..
(2:51 PM) j y.:	assuming that she has the same character as him.. assuming that she went to sleep around with men also.. i have already made my stand of loving you.. i have already forgotten about her.. i just started a new relationship with u for two weeks.. and am very happy.. now she suddenly come back cry say she pregnant what who bully her what.. do u think i care? i will never forget that she walked out on me.. i can never take betrayness like this.. now she want to get back together with me.. sorry.. i already have joanne..
(2:53 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	as in she`s not pregnant.. as in she break up with the previous guy.. jus to seek for ur forgiveness to be with you.. she cry and beg for you to patch up with her.. JY.. you `re a soft-hearted person.. u cant bear to see a girl cry..
(2:53 PM) j y.:	i'm soft-hearted.. but not dumb-headed..
(2:54 PM) j y.:	i will never stand for this kind of nonsense
(2:54 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	she said things like she realise u are the one which really treat her wholeheartedly.. she put the happy past one by one into ur brain.. u see her crying so pitifully.. think hard.. do u really walk out on her like dat..? ain`t u worried she will do something foolish..?
(2:59 PM) j y.:	it's not say i dont care about human life or what.. but at this point of time.. i have already made my stand.. i love you.. no matter how many bullshit past she can put into my brain.. it still cannot clog up that she walk out on me.. after 2 years.. she can actually bear to leave me like this.. go around have one big round of fun.. then come back to plea for forgiveness.. if it's so easy to get back to me.. i'm not jy.. she can throw her life around like that.. i'm not important to her anymore.. neither is she to me.. i see her crying so pitifully so what.. it's not as if she doesnt deserve it.. if she really wanted to die.. the most i can do is tell her not to..
(3:00 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	it`s easier said den done..
(3:01 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	if she`s already on the verge of death.. u`ll try ur utmost back to bring her back..
(3:02 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	cos if u nv.. u`ll live in guilt forever..
(3:02 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	it`s really easier said den done..
(3:02 PM) j y.:	i dont even think he has the courage to die.. he hasnt had enough fun yet..
(3:03 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i know he has the courage.. at that point of time.. he has lost his mind totally..
(3:03 PM) j y.:	he is just seeking attention
(3:04 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i dunnoe.. mayb it is..
(3:04 PM) j y.:	u pull him back to life.. look what he's doing to you now..
(3:04 PM)	··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [¤·· 彦仪* ('.')\*whёη.£äđΫ~ħäþþΫ.ШιⁿK ä+ mЄ´¯)×·· is now Offline
(3:04 PM)	··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [¤·· 彦仪* ('.')\*whёη.£äđΫ~ħäþþΫ.ШιⁿK ä+ mЄ´¯)×·· has signed-in (Away)
(3:05 PM) j y.:	u pull him back to life.. look what he's doing to you now..
(3:05 PM) j y.:	this kind of person i have seen through and through..
(3:06 PM) j y.:	now what are u trying to tell me?
(3:06 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i`m seeking ur understanding..
(3:08 PM) j y.:	u mean to tell me that.. let's say u have 4 ex like him.. while we are together.. every guy come back say want to die and u can just because u dont want to feel guity if he died.. u can bear to give up ur relationship with me? and be their comfort?
(3:08 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	dats not what i mean..
(3:09 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i only have 2 ex..
(3:09 PM) j y.:	i said let's say
(3:09 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	if the first one come back.. i`ll kick him away..
(3:09 PM) j y.:	but not the second one huh
(3:10 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	we shared alot of memories..
(3:10 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	and i`m used to giving way to him..
(3:13 PM) j y.:	whether they ought to be buried or dug up again it's up to you.. even though u are still with me.. so anytime we are together.. he come and tell u "oh ur pic with him i dont like.. pls delete.. i feel tortured.. please forget him.. please be with me.. who do u love more... i really really love you.. i'm sorry i done all that to you but i really love you.. please leave him for me please.." u can also give way to him? u dont really love me at all..
(3:14 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	if he say like dat only.. i wont care him at all..
(3:16 PM) j y.:	what are u trying to tell me now? his memories with u are worth alot after all those he done to you? u still used to giving way to him after u are with me? are u really serious with me? he tell u any story u also give way.. i really dont feel secure..
(3:16 PM) j y.:	can u wake up?
(3:19 PM) j y.:	if u really treasure ur memories with him.. u think he can be better than me.. and want to be with him can u tell me please..?
(3:21 PM) j y.:	fine.. bye

3:24 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i`m really serious when i`m with you.. i didn`t mean dat way.. i dun give way to his stories.. can u stop making assumptions urself..
(3:24 PM)	j y. has signed-in (Appear Offline)
(3:25 PM)	j y. has changed his/her status to Online
(3:25 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	cant we be frens nw..? why mus u make our gap bigger..
(3:25 PM) j y.:	i'm not making assumptions.. that is totally what u are showing me
(3:25 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	dats not what i`m showing you..
(3:25 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	you are presuming from what i`m showing you..
(3:26 PM) j y.:	i really cannot take it that such a person can destroy our relationship like this..
(3:26 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i dun get it.. why we cant be back like the day before.. stil chating normally..
(3:27 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	u`re forcefully enlarging the gap betw. us..
(3:28 PM) j y.:	because i love u more than u love me.. and u also have a backup love.. that is why u can so easily bring urself to separate with me and become friends instead. wheras i cannot.
(3:29 PM) j y.:	if u are so busy why still ask me to come back online?
(3:31 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	i`m not busy.. i dun have any backup love..
(3:31 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	he is looking for any gf nw.. *another
(3:32 PM) j y.:	just go with him.. maybe u will feel better
(3:32 PM) ··¤(`×[ jöäηηє [:	if saying i`ll go with him makes u feel better.. den make dat as dat..
(3:33 PM) j y.:	great. at least u are happier when with him..
(3:34 PM) j y.:	bye

If the above display of how shallow, materialistic, naive, selfish, inconsiderate, bad, lousy, heartless, two-faced, hypocritical, vicious and immoral a girl can be, cannot help those guys who are in the same situation that I was in to wake up, I don't know what else can.

Any objections for my description of the girl? Scrutinize lines from 1:45pm to 1:46pm.

And as I have never disclosed this private chat log before, those who didn't understand my "A fresh beginning, as fresh as it gets." post can certainly understand now.

また会う。

Dead Body Experiments.

2009-09-14T20:31:00.000+08:00

Just saw a very funny video on youtube, couldn't help posting here.

お楽しんで。

Hello people. 久しぶりだ.

2009-09-11T02:04:00.003+08:00

Wow, sorry for such a long hiatus from my blog.

Hmm, didn't have anything much to update anyway, so might as well. Becoming more and more lazy, haha.

I finally revisited here today and just feel like typing something.

Was so sick and tired of everything.

School; had to wake up early every wednesday to travel 90 minutes just for one stupid module. Poly life is more relaxed than JC, yes, but to spend it like I'm in secondary school, just put it this way: studying can be so boring.
I just hope I can successfully pass this time round and end it once and for all.

Work; I get to see just how many stupid, idiotic and naive people there are in Singapore. Thanks to my nice buddy Aaron, I was stranded at Barcelos Vivocity(it's a fast food restaurant) for about 6 weeks to work with the above mentioned types of people. Luckily it ended smoothly.
How in the hell do you expect the food runner to know which table to serve to when you cover your order tag with tissues?

My colleague: Hey JY why you want to quit this job so quickly?
Me: Because the pay is like, so low: $5/hr.
My colleague: Then how much you want? FNB is this rate what. McDonald's is 3.50, Pizza Hut 4+.... 5 is quite good already.
Me: zZzzz.....

Waiting for my results now, while doing nothing in the meantime. Hopefully I can get enlisted to NS soon and start the dreaded two years already.

My body's quite weak recently, prone to sickness, like every 2 weeks. Maybe it's because of the late nights I've been spending.

Had a dinner with my ex-japanese classmates Aiko, and the two Chris's to celebrate Chris's birthday. Bought a pack of nutty bar chocolates for him from Royce@Ion. (Sadly, the cute Japanese lady wasn't there that day.)

I miss Japan. I miss conversing in Japanese. Seriously. I need to start touching my Japanese books again or I'll rust.

That's all I can think of right now.

Randoms:

A salute to the heroes and condolences to the people who have lost families and loved ones in the tragic incident that happened eight years ago on this date. It's never easy to lose things you cherish, especially people.

I just installed Firefox 3.5 and it's super fast. Use it, people.

The same things.

2009-04-05T11:35:00.003+08:00

What would you normally write about when you have absolutely nothing of interest to update in your blog? Make it interesting. Or not.

Life hasn't changed in the past two weeks, and probably wouldn't for another good two weeks. But then again, life's unpredictable. Been doing pretty much the same things again and again. Without a goal and motivation, life can get really boring and meaningless to one, I suppose.

I just hope I can get out of this pit hole someday. Soon.

At least I get to meet singing greats at KTVs. At least I get to see pretty ladies at clubs. At least I get to forget my sorrows at pubs. At least I have friends.

I failed one module in my supposedly final semester of school. So I have to stay for yet another.

Sometimes I just feel like facing the sky and scream,
"why do you have to make it like this?"
"what did I do wrong?"
"do you feel happy seeing me like this?"

When will all these change?

It's already been so long.

It's not fair.

Another week.

2009-03-21T04:16:00.012+08:00

Somehow, Mozilla works for me again in blogger. Stupid buttons haven't been appearing for weeks. Finally. It does today.

Ought to be turning in, but yet, I still can't turn my internal clock around to a normal sleeping pattern. So I'm guessing I've lost about 3 or 4 days of sleep now.

Can't sleep at night, reduced to playing Fallout 3 to tire myself. But it entertained me though. Just don't understand why Bethesda Softworks doesn't want to hire real Chinese people for in-game Chinese voice-overs. Pretty amusing to hear Chinese soldiers shouting "打死他们!" as "大屎他们!". Yeah. Caucasians.

Had a fun but yet, money-draining week. Learned to play mahjong and lost 20 bucks in my first round. Guess I'll never gamble again. Haha. Went to Paradiz Centre with DYBers for dinner at Mad Jack's. They have 2 pages of vegetarian dishes in their 10+ pages menu. Not bad.

This is a fried white button mushroom. Super yummy!

This is the mixed fries with cheese and mayonnaise. Super yummy too! And super fatty.

I forgot to take a photo of my main dish due to the hunger then, but never mind, there's always another time. I had baked rice. Vegetarian flavor. They only had one, yeah. And as jiayi said, Roma's Deli is by far still the best for vegetarian pasta.

Oh, I was supposed to er, practice some Japanese in this post. Never mind, I still have some things to say. Can try to type them in Japanese where I can.

じゃ、そのあとは皆でParadiz Centreの近くにあるパブへ行った。そこには初めて行ったんだ。

それに、あいつらとそんな所へ行ったも初めてだ。

当夜、皆はカラオケをしたり、ビールを飲んだりした。気分は最高だったよ。Jiayiとデュエットを三つ歌ったけど、「千年之恋」は本当に難しかった。だめだった。俺の顔はもう捨てた。ハーハー。俺は自分をバカにしたけど、結構楽しかったな～。

Hmm, seems like I do need to start revising again.

Been trying to keep my desktop organized and neat, internally. Somehow, came upon some old files that surprisingly, still interests me. Before they are gone forever from anywhere near me like they should be, some food for thought.

You are................ Everything I dreamed about.. Everything that I talked about.. All words I sing about.. All that is that I write about.. Only thing I wanna hear about.. One thing I can't live without..

I was everything that you avoided about..
Only thing you didn't have to hear about..
One of the things you can live without..

It seems like it was yesterday.. the first time that I heard you call me dear.. since then so much has changed.. If i could rewind.. I`ll take back the lies.. And all those times i hurt you.. I wont make you wait.. And i will never walk away..

It's already very long since I called you that..
And nothing had changed..
If you could rewind..
You'll add in to all the lies and all those times you hurt me..

You always had no trouble walking away..

If only....................... I could take you in my arms and say.. I wont go `cause i need you.. I would be there for you.. I would give you the world.. I would treat you right..

You'll always go because you don't need me..
You were never there for me..
You would give me shit..
You would treat him right..

If you were mine….. I be your everything and you be the only thing that I would ever need….. If you were mine….. I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want….. If things could jus rewind….

When I was yours, you told everyone that he is the only one that you want..
Things can't rewind..

It seems like it was yesterday The first time I said I knew.. I knew this was heaven sent .. that I was destined to be with you.. And now i`ve messed it up.. The sleepless nights and the tears you cried.. The second chance you gave.. A fool i was to let you slip away..

You know nothing of how I've felt..
The countless chances I gave..
So clever of you to make a fool out of me, yet and yet again..

I would hold you in my arms, i would take the pain away. There`s nothing i wouldn`t do to hear your voice again.. I would tell you how much i`ve missed you since you`ve been away..

You would want to be in his arms..
There's everything you'd do to not hear my voice again..
You would tell him how much you've missed him since you've been with me..

Please know, no words could ever express the emotions that I feel for you; you paint my life with radiant colours; no man has ever touched my life the way you do. Please embrace me in your heart with tenderness and care.

No words, because you don't love me.
You tainted my life.
One man did before me.
I did. You didn't.

君を愛する力は永遠に変わらない。

残念だな。変わっても、変わらなくても。どうせ、あの時と今は同じだ。

どうしてこんなに好きなの？

俺を本当に愛していなかったから。

永远守护着我的天屎。

It seems like it was yesterday when i saw your face
You told me how much you loved me, but i walked away..
If only i knew what i know today..

You would still be the same.

derob os ma I

2009-03-15T21:54:00.007+08:00

This seems really random to start a post.

Don't really have anything to blog about, yet I feel like blogging, to kill time perhaps.

Don't really have an exciting life thus far.

Haven't been doing anything exciting this few weeks.

At home. Pubbing. At home. Clubbing. At home. Eating. Playing pool. At DYB. Singing. At home.

Oh yeah, cabbing, of course. The late nights.

For the first time ever, I sat my fat a*s in a Chrysler 300C cab. Flag down SGD5.00

Flagged down.

Ran out of money already. I need a part-time job. I need new clothes.

Oh yeah, I got my hair done. It's better than ever. Shall post a new photo when I have it done up and feel like having a camera aimed at my face.

DYB was fun. It was fun being the camera man(the irony). Fun taking sneak shots of those funny kids.

Too bad I can't transfer them over to show you guys.

It's been a long time since I've blogged in Japanese, so let's try that again before it rusts in my brain. In my next post. Oh, I got my JLPT level 3 certificate at 87%. JLPT 2 here I come. Make that an exclamation mark.

ほな。

显微镜下的爱情

2009-03-08T02:26:00.005+08:00

嘀嗒嘀听天空在哭泣
洗掉了一些梦埋葬在城市里

嘀嗒嘀听时间往前去
好像在预报着未来的连续剧

一封信一件旧的毛线衣
谁是谁的纪念品
拿什么来回忆

一场雨狠狠下在眼睛里
爱在生老病死后
已经都没关系

问自己没有你我行不行
显微镜里看爱情
~~残酷的放大所有爱的原因~~
放大了所有爱残酷的原因

遇见你之后爱上你然后狠透你

原来爱是~~回不去的旅行~~
不愉快的旅行

亲爱的让我忘记你

那些事情我终于看仔细

深夜里捷运站飘着雨我看着~~马路边另一对我和你~~
到处都是对对我和你

太多的为什么，如果，和因为所以

如果可以重来，宁愿不遇见你

如果可以选择，宁愿不做个人

A ray of hope.

2009-02-26T02:33:00.003+08:00

And here it is!

Taken at cineleisure today. First time I saw a natural rainbow with my own eyes.

Maybe it's a ray of hope for me. Haha.

Exams, please be over soon.

2009-02-24T20:00:00.010+08:00

One more last paper and I'll be done. =)

Insignificant rants, (don't mind me) :

So the story was and is indeed so much more tragic on the other side. Wow.

I don't know which part of my blog needs to be hidden, anyway. Any suggestions on the tagboard please. =)

A quote taken from an amazing half-man, half pig(mysterious guy): "见不得光".

Funnily enough, I have been and are still seeing light everyday. Hmm.

My blog is open to all humans ages 3 and up, with parental guidance if necessary. Anyone is welcome to read my content. I don't need to remove my tagboard for 'fear of untrue and ludicrous spamming' and 'harrassment', if any. All are welcome to tag.

So please, friends or foes(if any), you're welcome to 'disclose' my blog address to anyone, yeah. ;)

In fact, one friend felt that "Fresh beginning. As fresh as it gets." should get some form of publicity to help create awareness of the existence of such persons around the world.

I think I've actually discovered a rare phenomenon that is largely contributing to our planet's global warming.
It's actually a human with facial skin that's so thick it's thicker than the Earth's crust. No wonder the rapid melting of polar caps.

I can't imagine what the world, or just our country alone will become if, one day, it comes into the control of such a person.
I'll really pity the high court judges because they'll be sinners, taking into consideration the criminals who are traumatized by the very crime that the criminals themselves commit, such that they are more worthy of being called a victim in the said case than the actual victim itself. And therefore they should be given the due respect that they deserve, and be 'released of all charges' whereas it is the fault of the victim for traumatizing the criminal in the first place. In short, the victim should be punished. Wow.

Sounds weird? Certainly not to at least one person. Apparently.

Just something random,

Do not be mistaken by the girl in the poster.
Some choose abuse over love, as I have experienced.

At that rate, we'll see a murder a day. Live action.

All kinds of people exist. Don't be "struck". (Like you're thrown down from the eleventh floor.)

"我对你无情，你也不应该对我无益。" I don't have so much free time to waste on bothering, anyway.

On a different note, I'll like to say a big thank you to all my friends who were and are still here to encourage, help, advise, tip, accompany, cheer me up and be my listening ear during times when I need you most. I'm lucky to have all of you as my friends. *Hugs*

Quotes of the day:

Phone conversation 1.

Me:Yeah, so it's sort of a pity that I spent my 20th birthday like that.
Friend: 你没有去拜年吗？

......................

Phone conversation 2.

Me:I like the peanuts at that pub. They're roasted and tasty.
Friend: Which kind of peanuts you like? Is it the one with the shell and two things inside?

Time for Japanese Lesson 6!

Today I'm going to teach some simple verbs.

食べます。
tabemasu
to eat.

します。
shimasu
to do.

のみます。
nomimasu
to drink.

飛びます。
tobimasu
to jump/fly.

走ります。
hashirimasu
to run.

話します。
hanashimasu
to talk.

働きます。
hatarakimasu
to work.

あげます。
agemasu
to give.

ほな。

つまらないなぁ～

2009-02-18T03:01:00.003+08:00

Sigh, bad things seem to like to come one after another.

First, (refer to my previous post), and then, I almost lost my phone on the bus. Luckily, I alighted three bus stops before the interchange. Luckily, I could run fast enough just in time to run into the person who sat beside me. Luckily, he said he didn't see my phone. Luckily, he wasn't lying. Luckily, the bus captain returned the phone to me. It made me feel like returning the next valuable that I'll find.

And then, my kitchen's water pipe chose to burst one night while I was using the tap, conveniently at about 20 minutes before shops start closing. After figuring out how to off the main outlet(but not before the whole kitchen was flooded), I ran to the nearest hardware store to purchase a new pipe while my mum mops up the mess. 10 minutes late and I would need to wait till the next day to shower.

And then, .... Never mind.

Spent quite a few nights pubbing outside for the past two weeks. Alice sings very well, haha. Makes me feel like going KTV more to improve. (Oh, a side note, I noticed a japanese KTV opposite Allson Hotel in Bugis that looks nice, but expensive.) My alcohol tolerance seemed to have improved quite a fair bit. Not much reaction from my skin anymore. Had prata for supper at some 24hr indian coffee shop.

Watched "Love Matters" with Gerlyn this past monday. Quite funny throughout, but generic "Jack Neo" storyline. So he has used hell notes, monopoly notes, and what next? Vietnam Dong? Haha. Wierd ending. The nightmare part was totally random. And why would an 18-year old b*tch cry after being scolded by her boss for breaking bowls anyway? Mark Lee was hilarious. Haha. And yeah, I got to eat at Roma's Deli again after so long. I missed the baked rice. It's simply sumptuous. And I realised that not all their spaghettis are tasteless.

Met with Alice and her colleagues again today. One of them totally looks like Gillian Chung. Only that it's a guy. Imagine that. He should go participate in some variety show that compares his face with her face. He'll win first prize.

Random Quote of the Day:
----------------------------
Walks into Roma's Deli.
Me: So what would you like to eat?
Gerlyn: But there's meat in the menu. You can eat?
Me: (Points to the sign: Wholesome Vegetarian Goodness)
Gerlyn: Interesting!

今年も同じだったか...
しょうがなかった...
残念だな...
きっと、いつか俺の運命の特別な人と出会うんだ.

どこか...　いつか...

Fresh beginning. As fresh as it gets.

2009-02-11T23:30:00.003+08:00

Let me tell you a love story.

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she said:

回家的路总是很远
话少得很可怜
一个人的晚餐
都是孤单的滋味
看见身边重复上演
属于我们的画面
选择逃避的眼
怎么还是会流泪

爱着你的每一天
你就是我的世界
那时候还以为
我就爱这一遍

没有你的每一天
快乐离我好遥远
心已随你走了
还能用什么感觉

我舍不得睁开眼睛
害怕身边没有你
也许在梦境里
是我们最近的距离
想念你温热的手心
冷风里把我握紧
当冬天又来临
这温度该怎么延续

谢谢你曾经爱过我
给我最美的经过
但生命最爱被剥夺
未来的路该怎么走

And so he says:
我爱的人
(Sorry embedding not allowed due to copyright.)

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等

她做了她觉得对的选择

我只好祝福她真的对了

爱不到我最想要爱的人

谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人不是我的爱人

她心里每一寸都属于另一个人

她真幸福幸福得真残忍

让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深

我爱的人她已有了爱人

从他们的眼神说明了我不可能

每当听见她或他说「我们」

就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声
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To hopefully aid other good guys out there (and myself) in the (near) future,

10 Many symptoms that your girlfriend is already not your girlfriend:

She feels that you live too far away from her.
She feels that it's very expensive to travel to your place more than two times per week.
She feels that there's nothing wrong with meeting just once in a month.
She doesn't sleep on the bus, but doesn't talk to you either.
It's not exam period, and she doesn't work everyday, but for the past month, you had only met her once.
She continues with her phone conversation and doesn't look at you after reaching the meeting place.
She doesn't look happy that you went all the way to the other side of Singapore so that you can accompany her for the trip to your house.
If you don't look at her, she doesn't look at you.
She doesn't like meeting you for too long.
She doesn't know what you two can do when she meets you.
She finds it boring to be at your house.
She doesn't appreciate you cooking for her.
She has never cooked/brought food for you.
She doesn't like strolling in town with you. Or anywhere else.
You are always the one suggesting meet-ups.
She doesn't sleep after talking with you on the phone at night.
She goes out at night, but not with you.
She spends the night outside, her phone is on, but she only picks up your call the next day, not call you.
She didn't delete her ex-boyfriend's photos.
She will rather spend lunch breaks in school with her classmates rather than with you.
She thinks it's stupid to wait for you below your classroom block to walk to the bus stop together.
She wears various jewelries that she said are from friends.
She hesitates when you ask her which friends are those.
She doesn't wear jewelries that you gave her.
She tells you that she doesn't have much money,
and from time to time she has expensive gadgets which her friends bought her,
like PSP, NDS and etc.
She celebrates her birthday, but not with you.
She can't be contacted on her birthday.
She doesn't celebrate Valentine's Day with you.
She feels that she doesn't need to celebrate her birthday with you.
She'll rather sleep than meet you.
Your friend saw her outside, holding hands with another guy.
She posts photos of herself and that guy on her online profile.
You haven't seen her online in MSN for weeks. After a while, she lets slip that her friend did something for her because of her MSN nickname, recently.
She has an entry in her mobile's contact list that is "Dear", but it's not your number.
Your number in her mobile's contact list is nameless.
She becomes happy for no reason.
She looks pensive after lying to you.
Your friend saw her getting in a mysterious two-door car after school, she doesn't tell you where she went.
She tells you that it was her godbrother. After a few days, you remember that her godbrother drives a motorbike.
She doesn't pick up your call for the whole day. Some of your calls were rejected.
A mysterious guy suddenly calls you and asks who you are.
The mysterious guy says that he is your girlfriend's boyfriend.
She thinks that the things she gave you in the past are very meaningful when it breaks your heart every time you look at them.
She doesn't appreciate the fact that you forgave her for once two-timing you and had already given her countless chances to redeem herself.

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10 actions that make a girl a b*tch (when she's attached with you):

Liking another guy.
"Harboring" feelings for an old flame.
Meet an old flame.
Doesn't do what she promised she will do.
Play a game of verbal reversi with you.
Cries to you because of something that she did you wrong today,
quarrels with you because of that something one week later.
Doesn't refrain from making friends with guys who had already confessed to her.
Calling you Mr. Right when she is Miss Right.
Getting mad at you when you go out with girls,
getting mad at you when you ask her why she goes out with other guys.
Saying that you throw tantrums like a little girl.

Well, what do you know, "the whole world knows only my side of the story!"
I wonder how tragic the other side of the story is. It must be so painful. Aww. She's such a pitiable victim.

Thank you for the last message. It killed the last tiniest bit of thirst, hope and love I had for you.
It made letting go a whole lot easier.

And now for some QOTDs
----------------------------
In class, after my Japan trip.

Sensei: Osaka no hito wa dou deshitaka?
Me: Yasui desu.
Sensei: Yasui? Hito o kau?
Yasashii jya nai desu ka?
Me: Opps.

English version:
Teacher: How were the people from Osaka?
Me: Yasui desu. (They were cheap.)
Teacher: Cheap? You buy people?
You mean yasashii (nice)?
Me: Opps.

.................................................................................................
A question from a certain international language paper:

このテープは　家で聞いてください。
はい、＿＿＿＿。
１．聞いてください
２．わかりました
３．テープです
４．わかりませんでした

English version:
Please listen to this tape at home.
Yes, _______.
1. please listen
2. I understood
3. it is a tape
4. I did not understand
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It's now time for the long-awaited Japanese Lesson 5!!
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Today I'm going to teach some commonly known phrases.

お元気ですか。
ogenki desu ka.
How are you?

久しぶりです。
hisashiburi desu.
Long time no see.

喜んで。
yorokonde.
It's a pleasure.

お邪魔します。
ojyamashimasu.
Excuse me for disturbing.

どういたしまして。
dou itashimashite.
You're welcome.

ただいま。
tada ima.
I'm home!

行ってきます。
itte kimasu.
I'm off (going out)!

大丈夫ですか。
daijyoubu desuka.
Are you okay/alright?

すみません。
sumimasen.
Sorry./Excuse me.

Happy Lunar New Year.

2009-02-01T18:45:00.006+08:00

Ah, it's still not late to wish you all a Happy Chinese New Year.
Hope your number of red packets is more than mine.
Guess most people are 捞ing 鱼生 today. Pardon the Singlish.

I wonder how long more it's going to be before I'll feel good about blogging again.
Or doing anything, even.

It's been a nightmare for me this past 2 weeks, although the nightmare itself had started more than one year ago, oblivious to me.
I'm not going to be like a particular somebody, embedding meanings into poetry and song lyrics and saying that "oh, it doesn't mean what it seems to mean."

Good that you're happy. Don't even deny it.

I'm going to say what I feel directly. I'm depressed. Or I was, maybe. But I hope I'm not going to be depressed for any longer. No, not over you. You were never worth it, and never will be.

Spent a quite boring CNY this year. It's getting worse each year. At least there are the red packets to look forward to.

Did quite a fair bit of KTVing. Everything seems so fun.

I hope everything can really be fun soon. Maybe I should stop blogging. It's making me feel worse.

もと早く忘れたはず。

何も考えたくない。嬉しくなりたい。

また、あの日が来る。毎年そのままで過ぎた。

今年も同じかな？

Random "QOTD"
-----------------------
In my japanese class, practicing my speech for speech contest in front of the class.

Me: Doukyo no kisoku no hitotsu wa, bejitarian ni narakereba naranai no desu.

Sensei: naraNAkereba!

Me: narakereba naranai no-

Sensei: naraNAkereba!

Me: narakereba-

Sensei: naraNA~kereba

Me: naranakereba naranai no desu.

Sensei: O, ii desu. (Class claps)

あの日。

2009-01-09T18:48:00.004+08:00

あの日には、君に出会わなかったら、今がどうなる？

Ancient "QOTD" that I remember:
-------------------------------------------

Me and my japanese class classmate sitting at a corner in the library,
near another group of people.

Me: Shukudai wa mou shita?

My friend: Iie, mada.

Me: Mou jikan ga nai kara, hayaku shite ne.

(Guy X in the nearby group of people overheard us conversing in japanese)
(Guy X showing to his friends he knew how to speak japanese too)

Guy X: Watashi wa John-san desu!

Me & My friend:(Look at each other)HAHA!

Japanese Lesson 4
----------------------

Never EVER address yourself with san, kun, chan, etc. The least of all, sama.
Those are for people to address you.

New year, new skin.

2009-01-05T03:03:00.003+08:00

Just found this skin, think it's quite nice. Hope you guys find it nice too. =)

でも、何も変わってない。

お正月、明けましておめでとうございます

2009-01-04T03:30:00.009+08:00

oshougatsu, akemashite omedetou gozaimasu.

That's how you say Happy New Year in japanese. Pretty long, isn't it.
Well, it's a bit too late, but I'll still like to wish you all a Happy New Year. Hope 2009 will be a great year for you. Hopefully for myself too.

Nothing interesting happened in my life lately, but I can't really fall asleep, so might as well do something that I wouldn't feel like doing any other time.

Went to KTV with xuannie and gang last sunday. It was a really fun day, enjoyed myself thoroughly. The place was cool and the ambience was nice. The room was spacious and they have tables with glass finishes and underneath that, blue lights. Felt good to scream and shout through a microphone whenever I have the chance, even though my voice couldn't make it that day. Been long since I've sung with you guys. Can't wait to do the japanese one again, soon. =) Hopefully, with more people this time round. And of course you, Qiao Yi. きっと、来てくれてよ。

ああそうだ、先にお誕生日おめでとう！あと四日だっても。

It was to my cousin's wedding dinner after that. Great place again, although it was in a secluded area. Held at a country club. Guess the groom's really rich. My cousin looked beautiful that day. 6 years being together. That's really something. I call it bliss. Guess I should declare that my family(father excluded), is on the opposite of good terms with my father's side of relatives. Politics. Politics. Politics. Food was edible, mostly. It would have tasted better if my mother and I didn't have to take in the wiffs of various cooked meat that was emitting from the center of the table, for every dish. Even DESSERT, they had to add in something that's not suitable for vegetarians.

Guess that I should be blogging about my host experience for the japanese students. Though I don't feel like doing it now. It was great, although they were basically more than 50% otaku. It was a change, to have someone living in your place and didn't know how to communicate except by japanese. At least, I got to see the way a japanese boy plays Grand Theft Auto IV. Haha. It was interesting. Tiring for me too, accompanying them watching movies till afterhours. Nice conversations we had too. Luckily for me, there wasn't too much of a problem handling simple japanese. Gotta touch up on my japanese though. Did not touch japanese since JLPT 3. Maybe that should be my new year resolution. Upgrade myself to JLPT level 2 standard. Stop slurring my words and speak more fluently.

とにかく先、「絶対彼氏」のドラマを見れた。全部だ。すごいドラマだと思ってる。

愛は一体、なにものなんだだろう。今の世界で、本当の愛があるんのか。人間じゃなくても、愛を持てるんのか。持てたらすごいなあ。愛について、正しいとか正しくないのはある？本物愛をされて欲しかったら、それは恣意的のか。もしそう欲しかったら、それはもう、愛と謂えないのか。俺は知りたい。俺は恋愛なんて、良く分からないけど、もう一度やって見たい。悲しくされてばかりだっても、幸せになれたら、したい。

Japanese Lesson 3
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Grammer
========
[の]
Read as "no".

Eg.
私の傘です。
watashi no kasa desu.
It is my umbrella.

AのB
A's B.

来る = kuru = to come

行く = iku = to go

Vocabulary
=========
「本当」hontou = really
「世界」sekai = world

「人間」ningen = human

「恣意的」shiiteki = selfish

I don't know what to type here.

2008-12-10T23:43:00.003+08:00

Another quote of the day:

(In a diner, with the two japanese students eating ice-cream)
Jia yi: Ask them to take er, what, shinsai, right?

Xuannie
and me: HAHA!

Japanese Lesson 2
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shashin = 写真 = photo
shinsai = 震災= earthquake disaster

eg. 写真を撮りたいです。(shashin o toritai desu.)
I want to take a photo.

Will blog about the homestay when I have photos and time. =D

News.

2008-12-03T18:49:00.002+08:00

And here's a bit of it. So after my post two days ago, I received a call this afternoon during school, after a one month interval from the constituency manager himself, to inform me that at least one student will be coming to my house this saturday for the home stay program. Talk about good responsibility, and "keeping in touch".

So much for time to do last minute studying.

So if anyone is interested to help me tour them/meet them/join in our activities, feel free to contact me. =) Please.

PS. They'll be here from the 6th to 8th.

Update.

2008-12-01T20:43:00.006+08:00

Okay, so I failed to have more than one entry last month. Oh well.

Still in the middle of a busy period right now.

JLPT this sunday
Common test next week
Project reports and programming

And, to add to my inconvenience, the organizer of the so called japanese home-stay program, from a particular community centre, has failed to "keep in touch". I submitted the application form like, before 8th of November. He emailed me on the 8th saying the above quote. Now, it's 6 days away from the start of the program. I suppose I won't be part of it. Or I was forgotten. Boohoo.

でもいいだろう？I'll have some burden off my back.

DYB camp was ビヨンドワード！
Although it was hard on everybody campers included due to tiredness and lack of sleep,
it was successful and everyone enjoyed themselves in at least some way.
Way to go, DYBers! Looking forward to our next meetup to properly celebrate our success.

Looking forward to 3 weeks of term break after 12th to properly enjoy Grand Theft Auto IV.

Random: I've got a nice quote of the day, チャオイ！

(In the library, sitting down reading in the japanese section.)
(2 guys walking past me to the next shelf, discussing japanese.)
Guy 1: Hey, I've heard japanese is really hard to learn.
Its grammer seems difficult.
Guy 2: Ya, it's like for example, わたしは actually means I am.
It's four syllabus but it actually means two words only.
Guy 1: Ya I know, わたしは is I am, so わたし is I right?
Guy 2: No, I is わ. わたしは is I am.

Japanese lesson 1
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わたしは = watashiwa (I am)
は is a particle read as "wa".
But as a character, it is read as "ha"
Eg. はな = hana (Flower/Nose)

日本語で書こう！

2008-11-03T14:56:00.010+08:00

今日は！今回のポストは日本語で書くと決めた。面白いと思う。それに、自分の日本語の能力を試す事ができる。ねぇ？＝）はーはー。いや、実は僕の日本語能力試験の三級がもうすぐ来るからだ。やべぇ、まだ練習しなかった。

じゃ、最近があった事を発表する。

先週の木曜日は僕の誕生日だった。ちょっと寂しかったけど、嬉しかった。けど、それはあの日だけだ。僕に祝った人は少なくなかったんだが、僕と祝した人はジョアンしかいなかった。

これはあいつが買ってくれたケーキだ。

僕の誕生日願望が現実になれるかな？もう、思いたくない。今の僕は何も持ってない。どんな思いを

持っても、もう、幸せになれない。そうだ。その気持だ。

悲しいことをやめましょう。次に行こう。

金曜日の夜はカラオケをした。初めてチャオイーちゃんとジャハオくんカラオケをした。素晴らしい体験だった。

皆は歌う事が上手だ。でも、チャオイーは恥ずかしすぎたな。もと自信を持って、チャオイー。＝）

楽しかったな～、その日。また君たちとカラオケをしに行きたい！今度はCash Studioへ行こう。

ええと。。他に話したい事はないんだ。そう。最近があることはあまり面白くない。あっそう！ホムステイについて、もう申込書を申し出た。今は消息を待っているだけ。＝）ホストになれる！

じゃ、ここまで書く。今度はきっと日本語のポストを長く書く。

Blah.

2008-10-17T22:27:00.004+08:00

School started.

Which is equals to fewer posts.

Don't even feel like blogging. Sigh.

Feels like the next couple of months are going to be hectic.

Gotta plan my time properly. Sigh.

Just a few number of important stuffs/to-dos:

finish project
start studying for JLPT
clean/clear my room
maybe have to be involved in cleaning my sis's room(I have been wanting her metal desk)
confirm about the japanese program thingy
help and participate in dYb and camp related things

Yes, I haven't started studying for JLPT. Have to plan study sessions for myself.

My sis's friend from some community centre is going to hold some program which involves Japanese students coming over to Singapore.

I don't know anything about it yet. She just asked whether I'm interested to host the Japanese students. I said I was keen. (DUH)

But after I said that, I realized it's actually very troublesome.

my house is small
I have to clean my and my sis's room
I have a father with very bad daily habits which will most certainly scare the students
it's from the 6th to 8th of December
7th December is ~~very likely~~ the date of my JLPT exam
9th December onwards for a week is going to be my common test week
I'll lose sleep

I'm going to need to be very hardworking.

And there may be a chance that I'm hosting two students.

Sigh, just MAYBE, I can get to host them.

A post one year overdue.

2008-10-10T22:00:00.003+08:00

Hahaha, yes, a post that is one year overdue. And it's going to be a very long one.
Why am I bothering? Because partly, there's nothing else to blog about now, I still can remember most of the events, I didn't have a blog at that time, and school is about to start for me in three days. It's something I can reminisce about, too. So might as well do this post now. Or never.

Yes. I'm going to post about my Japan study trip which happened about a year ago. It was a two-weeks stay at Osaka, although each of us did go to other parts of Japan near Osaka like Kyoto, Nara, and.... okay, I don't remember. =D

I didn't go to Nara. Heard that the Osaka Castle was there from another student in the same trip, Rennie. Why not in Osaka? Haha. But it didn't sound interesting to me, except for the part that the deers were seen in the grounds everywhere and roaming freely. And if it was March, I might have wanted to go. Too bad it was October. No Sakuras...................T_T I haven't seen them in real life yet.　キレイな～
Not that October was a bad time, though. For those who are more sensitive to heat, like me, are sure going to like the post-summer weather there. Especially people who hate Singapore's weather. It's just superb there, especially at night, the cool-but-not-chilling and never-stopping breeze just kept blowing in my face(and body). Sort of calms you down. I didn't even perspire at night there. In fact, of the two weeks, I can only remember that I perspired on one morning, which was during the first Monday, during the Minou tour. That was when the sun was shining directly in my face.

I can go on and on about the weather. HAHA. Because it was just too desirable. I realized, on my third night there, that the window in the guest room I was sleeping in behind my bed was always opened. I slept with only one window opened, and an extremely thick blanket covering my whole body, and I didn't sweat! Just natural air-conditioning. Best part of the weather-experience was the first day, when we just reached Kansai Airport. When we stepped outside, WOW, it's like you're in Singapore and the weather's so hot and you just stepped into a shopping mall. The outside was colder than indoors. And it's not winter yet. 信じられるのか？And the wind is NEVER stopping. Literally.
Okay. Enough about the weather. HAHA.

Okay, so this is going to get VERY long. I'm going to go through the events from the trip now.

So... We took a night flight there, around 11 plus. It was a Friday night. My first time going overseas in 10 years. And without my parents. So it was a totally exciting experience for me. We took JAL's economic flight. Very squeezy. I got a person in front, and a person behind, and my fellow trip mate beside me. This is the main reason why I couldn't sleep throughout the flight, not that I didn't try. Which in turn caused me to not be able to enjoy the whole trip fully.

After the flight, it was straight to buy breakfast and to the welcome party at Osaka University Of Foreign Languages. Along the way on the bus, I couldn't even keep my eyes open. Though I did realize they have really long freeways. It was one that connected the island on which the airport was on to the mainland. If the airport was on an island. I can't remember. Haha =D
It was fairly far away from mainland, which explained the strong waves, I think. Long time since I was out at sea.
Sadly, I couldn't even pay attention when we entered city area.

Yes, so we bought our 朝ご飯 at a ”コンビニ”, namely, LAWSON! If they have convenience stores like this in Singapore, I'll be so happy. And then we took taxis to the school.

In the taxi. Their doors opens and closes automatically.

Pardon the spastic hair, but I'm going to look like this throughout.
Too tired. =X

And when we reached the school, the students were waiting outside the school for us. There was an "Ang Mo" whose name is Yuri.
He's from Ukraine and he's been living there for two years! すてきだろう！関西弁で話していたも。(He even speaks the kansai dialect!)

We went to their "party" room for the welcome. But before that it was breakfast in another room.

Breakfast with nihonjin-tachi. On my right is my sensei.
On my left is Aiko-san. Very friendly person. =)

Waiting for the welcome. Sarah's taking photo for us.

The principal welcoming us. If that's him. Can't remember =P

Me saying my welcome speech.

Interaction.

To the exchange program, kanpai!

The hosts were all very friendly! =)
Then it was back to each of our own host family's home on Saturday morning before our program begins on monday.
Our program was none other than Japanese class, from monday to friday, 3 hours each day. In the afternoons, we had "other activities" like visiting their school(CCA) clubs, learning how to cook simple Japanese dishes, and on the first day, a tour in the nature reserve of Minou city.

Just some random shots of during-class activities. Not in chronological order.

This is the funniest sensei of the five days. Because he's a bit ~~sissy~~. *Ahem*
His lesson was the funniest, too. =)

Random.

Doing worksheets/ Taking notes.

Lesson with Japanese(and Caucasian) partners.

Interactive learning. Yes, there is one more "Ang Mo".
Lived in Japan for 10 years.

Conversation practice. The sensei between us is the cutest sensei!
Haha. She spoke like she was an anime character.

Okay. Now for after-class activities. Also not in chronological order.

Minou tour. Some random statue.

Near the entrance of the reserve.

In front of the "Taki" (Waterfall) in the reserve.

The "taki".

We made takoyaki! And yakisoba.

Tada! I made them myself.

Guess how many takoyaki-s we made in one afternoon?
More than 400!

Wearing yukata! We had to do a presentation wearing this.
(Haha, our shoes look funny.)

The back.

Practicing the presentation.

Group photo.

We had to present in front of this many Japanese students.

怖いー　緊張した。

Classic shot.

Up next are photos from the farewell party, on the second Sunday.

Farewell speech.

The "emcees". That's Yuri on the right.

Embarrassing acts.
Okay, we had some performances ready for the farewell party.

Indian dance.

Malay dance.

Group photo again.

Friendship dance! Everybody danced.

Second shot.

Um, The Shades-Wearers? Hahaha.

Being forced to eat durian cakes. Notice the man in the background?
He was the only one to enjoy them.

Well, that was the serious part. We only had about three days to really let our hair down.
After the farewell, it was taxi again to our hotel, Esaka Central Hotel for the last four days.
But first, let me blog abit about my host family. I've only got one person to host me, a 66 year old granny. She was so nice. If only my own granny is half as nice as her. She did my laundry and meals for my stay at her house. Speaking of her house, it's extremely huge! And beautiful. I'm the one that got the biggest house there, I think. It's got 3 storeys, an elevator, a garage for two, and 3 gardens. Big?

This is the granny. Taken in her garden on the second floor.

The granny's 和室.

Inside the elevator in her house.

How I wish I can have a house like this too...

On to the not so serious part. Pictures from the last 3 days as well as some from during the first week.

The kinkakuji. （金閣寺） It's in Kyoto.

Some statues for you to throw your money at.
Notice a 2-dollar Singapore note? No, I didn't throw it.

Again, if Singapore has things like this, life will be happier.

This is a traditional Japanese wedding. Held at some other shrine.

A cute public phone I came across in the streets in Kyoto. Or Osaka. Haha.

Taken inside a public bus.

Taken from inside the bus.
Look at how far you can see into the distance from ground level.

Another shot to emphasize.

Osaka subway system. Nine lines. Or more.

I had udon with one of my trip mate and her host family at a noodle house.

Collect a number of chopsticks sleeves and exchange them for gifts.
Creative right?

Fushimi Inari.

Kiyomizu Dera

Ice-cream!!! Cheaper and tastier. =D

Random shot in the streets of Osaka. DOCOMO!!!

Rennie managed to persuade two cute japanese school girls
to take photo with us.

KFC man. HAHA.

Shin Sekai.

Random shot.

Read the words on the blue sign. =)

To Universal Studios Japan!

Too bad I didn't take any shots inside. Too busy playing. Or too tired. HAHA.
Because of the first day that I didn't sleep on the plane, I had to endure throughout the two weeks.
So if you're the kind that can't sleep on economic flights, please take some sleeping pills to enhance your trip experience. ZZZzzzz
Less than 5 hours of sleep everyday. zzZZZzzZZ

After that we went shopping at shinsai bashi too, just that I didn't take photos too. Really very tired already.
Didn't even join in the informal gatherings they had in the hotel room after hours.

Anyway this post is getting really long, so good thing I don't have anymore interesting photos to post.
(I'm real tired now too.) HAHAHA.

Yes! I've managed to blog about two weeks of events in just one page. =D

お休み！またね！＝）

Bored.

2008-10-06T03:00:00.001+08:00

Can't sleep. I needed a good laugh, and went to engrish.com
Some of the pictures there really made my day. Just going to share some random funny pictures that I found below.
[All photos and some quotes are credited to www.engrish.com and the respective people that posted them.]

Tastes like chicken! … that’s been previously tasted.

Housing brochure from China

¥100 in kiddie pool…

It's legal...

This is the good stuff!

If the flames don't get ya, the explosions will...
[By far, this is the funniest I've seen! Hahaha...]

They need to approve everything.

Not bad once you get over the brown spots...

I always wondered where the Grinch lived...

Intimidate?

I should have upgraded to an ocean view room...

可笑しいじゃない？（笑う　笑う　笑う）

Many more at the site. Hope they made your day too! =)

First Post

2008-10-03T22:05:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone! Today shall be the birth of my blog.. I didn't say it's my first one ever because I actually sort of had one account like, very long ago and didn't bother to blog. Well, I hope this time round it'll be different! =)
Yes, I think so. Because of what happened about half a month ago, I'll probably be more and more free. And it was not something to be happy about. But since I'm more free, I can do some finger exercising and keep myself busy. =)

*Exhale* So what should I write for my first post..? Nothing really interesting can happen to me now, I suppose. What do people usually write for their first posts? Should I introduce myself? Haha.. I'll probably do that in the Profile page. Yeah..
I'll just say that I'll try to blog in japanese if I can, as I'm learning the language now and in fact, will be taking the international proficiency test in coming December. So practise more. Haha..
I'll be taking level 3. There are a total of 4 levels, with level 1 being the highest proficiency level.
Some friends said it's not much harder than level 4, while there were also friends who failed level 4 and 3.
とにかく、頑張るぜ。=)

Hmm, might as well go through the most recent events - yesterday.
I went to Cash Studio again, with zixuan and one of her web friends. It's one of the few KTVs here to have japanese songs, I think.
The last time I went there, which was like last week, I only got to sing mandarin and english songs but this time I finally got to sing japanese songs again! After 1 year.
Too bad they didn't have two of the songs that I wanted to sing most -
...Lost in thought by Phantasmagoria
Windress by Versailles
But I got to sing some gazette songs anyway.. =) The music was a bit wierd though, they had MIDI chords added in.
We arrived at around 1.15pm, and I thought we could stay until like, at least 6pm (although the session was supposed to be 3 hours).
しかし、some other people came and we had no choice but to leave around 4.30pm. How many people are so free on a thursday afternoon?
And then I found out they only had two rooms with japanese songs. Okay.

After that we strolled around town and went to the Isetan at the basement of Shaw house. I didn't know that they sell Japan imported foodstuffs. They had grapes larger than the local(or imported from other countries) ones and they look so delicious.
One packet for SGD$66. Grapes, anyone?
Met quite a number of japanese people. Their babies are just so cute.
And then we went to HMV at the heeren. Nothing much worth mentioning. (和楽は高すぎな～ここに。）

Now for the more enjoyable part. We went to waraku de pasta which was just upstairs. Initially it was because we wanted ice cream, but after flipping through the menu and inhaling the aroma coming from the orders of other customers, we decided to have our dinner there too. HAHA.
I realized they had one dish I could eat - corn and butter spaghetti. (I'm vegetarian)

Ice cream soda

My 抹茶パフェー

美味しそうじゃない？

But the bill was expensive of course. About 26 per person. Can't afford to eat like this often. =(

On the way back, chatted with zixuan abit. Talked about my unhappy past again. I really regretted wasting so much of my own effort and time over her. We are just in two totally different worlds. Shouldn't have believed her in the first place.
Since she's such a person, I think it's good for me now that things ended up this way.
Well I can't be bothered anymore by that already. Moving on.

I think I have written enough for now. Until my next post, またね！=)